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Excited to announce that N'tegrity In Motion will be recognizing Bgirl Tynee, GoShow Your Self Merchandise in #fellowshipfridays next Blog Issue. She supported me with her line Resilient last year, giving me the courage to follow through and use my voice.

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I almost can’t believe that one year has passed since I published my first blog! It simultaneously feels like a lifetime has passed and in no time at all so much has happened!

First, I want to extend a gigantic and genuine thank you to everyone who read my story, shared the blog, and supported me. Together, we reached over 12,500 people and four continents (North America, South America, Europe, and Asia)! We had the blog translated into Spanish and a petition to remove Xcel from his position was signed over 700 times.

I have had the incredible support of some truly impactful organizations including Dance Safe, Floor Lords, Unscripted Podcast, Breaking Barriers, Child of this culture, Bgirl Collective, Not All That Glitters, Rede Bgirls do Brasil, United Hip Hop Vanguard, and people have rallied by my side to fight for a safer breakin’ community.

Although that blog I published one year ago made a huge impact, we still have a long way to go! But that’s okay. I’m looking to the future and I see a world that is safer, happier, and more inclusive for all!

In this blog, I want to celebrate how far we’ve come and begin to pave the way for anyone who wants to fight against sexual abuse, harassment, and bullying in the breakin community. With the Paris Olympic games right around the corner, I believe there has never been a more important time to pull our resources together and create a environment where everyone feels safe enough to follow their dreams - wherever those dreams may lead.

US Breakin’ Announces Xcel’s Resignation

The first and biggest result of the blog is Xcel (Jonathan Escotto), the Vice President of USA Breakin’ resigned from his position. I was hoping that the blog would spark an official investigation that ended in Xcel’s removal. However, that is not what happened.

First, USA Dance released a letter saying that he was suspended from his position while they investigated the claims I made in the blog. You can read that letter here.

Ken Richards, President of USA Dance, said:

“USA Dance, Inc. has been notified by the USA Breakin’ Board of Directors that their DanceSport Vice President, Jonathan ‘Xcel’ Escotto, has been accused of a SafeSport Violation and as such has been suspended from his position pending an investigation.”

USA Breakin’ also released a letter. It simply stated:

“Dear USA Breakin’ Community,

An article was posted online today accusing a member of our Board of Directors, Jonathan "Xcel" Escotto, of rape in 2011.

USA Breakin’ has a zero tolerance policy for abuse or misconduct and seeks to ensure a safe environment in which dance athletes all can thrive.

Given the allegations, we are immediately suspending Jonathan's role in our organization as we conduct an investigation of this matter.

Our hearts are heavy to learn of these allegations and for all victims who have experienced abuse. We will do everything in our power to ensure our athletes can practice their sport in a safe and healthy environment.

Thank you,

USA Breakin’”

You can view the Facebook post with this letter here.

Unfortunately, the investigation was never able to occur because Xcel resigned. With his resignation, the investigation was called off. Along with that, USA Breakin’ did not themselves announce that Xcel would be leaving his position, nor did they allow for an unbiased announcement. Instead, they let Xcel speak for himself. You can read his resignation letter below.

USA Breakin’ posting his resignation letter effectively allows Xcel to control the narrative. At worst, posting this was an act of solidarity with Xcel. At best, it was a really awful mistake - one that caused a lot of backlash.

Understandably, people in the breakin’ community were immediately outraged. They communicated their feelings on Facebook.

“As a dance sport athlete and as an individual who’s been Safe Sport Certified since 2016 and has a Bachelors in Public Relations, the blatant bias in this announcement is quite disheartening.

Moving forward, how will you ensure that any and all allegations or concerns will be taken seriously and investigated fully without bias or personal interest?

What steps will you take to prioritize safety over image and/or results?” -Michiko Sharpe (Facebook)

“1. Nah a full investigation needs to be done and the results told to the community to ensure 1, USA Breakin cares about the community’s women/female practioners or organizers who maybe don’t break directly.

2. The accused in his letter is also doing what must abusers to, centering the letter around himself, talking about their love for the thing or group they’re in, and then finishing it out with ‘they’re lying and I’ll handle it lowkey.’” - Hauston Grimes (Facebook)

“While I understand your organization’s attempt at transparency by sharing the letter, your organization's statement and non-reply regarding the contents in the letter does not make anyone feel safe.

If you are here to build public trust, you are failing at it.

If I have a daughter, female students, and/or female colleagues who want to join breaking at the Olympic level, given what I have stated, why should I bother recommending your organization to them? -Sheng Tan (Facebook)

After being inundated with questions and concerns from the community, USA Breakin’ disabled comments underneath the resignation letter and released another statement, which did not allow any comments at all:

I want to thank Floor Lords, Xcel’s crew for taking immediate action and removing Xcel from their crew. They posted the following letter on their Instagram:

This is a step in the right direction for the breakin’ community, which is exactly what I want this blog to focus on. I have spent too much time dwelling on the past. Now, I want to look toward the future.

Healing the Community and Moving Forward

Abusers often make it difficult to move on. Not only can the grip of trauma hold you back, but many abusers will go to great lengths to silence you, discredit you, and position themselves as the victim.

I experienced cyberbullying and stalking after my blog was published. Once I called out injustices in the breakin’ community, I saw people hide behind fake online accounts to call me a liar, make horrible claims about my faith, and spread lies about my past. Xcel even went so far as filing a restraining order against me and not showing up to court.

I am glad to say that I have more people supporting me than opposing me, but it’s important to mention that abusers will go to great lengths to defend themselves. Please remember, you are doing the right thing if this ever happens to you!

I believe that survivors can work to heal by sticking together and lifting each other up. There is strength in numbers. I would like to offer some community resources to anyone who needs them. The following resources have been instrumental in my healing, and I hope they can help someone reading this, too.

  1. In Motion Mondays

I host #inmotionmondays on my Instagram, which includes fun dance content, inspirational quotes, and resources for survivors of sexual assault. In these posts, I share stories of my own alongside other strong women in the community. Together, we help spread awareness of sexual assault and share resources for anyone who needs help, protection, or just someone to listen to.

  1. N’Tegrity in Motion Blog

I truly believe that talking about our experiences as survivors is the first step to healing. If you have a story to tell, and you’re ready to share it, please reach out to me. I will use my blog as a safe space to share your stories.

  1. Not All That Glitters is Gold

Not All That Glitters is Gold addresses sexual abuse through the lens of the music industry, activating the community to call out violations and support survivors. They have supported me throughout the process of sharing my story and have been an incredibly valuable resource for me.

  1. Unscripted Podcast

Unscripted Podcast, by Speak Your Truth Worldwide, provides a platform known for having and sharing uncomfortable conversations around mental health, sexual assault, and abuse issues affecting creatives within the entertainment industry. I was interviewed on the podcast on July, 26th 2021. If you would like to listen to the episode, click here. These conversations are difficult, but they are catalysts for change.

  1. A Space for Culture presented by Teknyc and United Hip Hop Vanguard

A community discussion supporting cultural re-growth of Hip Hop and BIPOC engagement. Last year they invited me with guest panelists and community leaders Asia One, Rockefeller, Genesis, Teknyc, Abstrak and therepist Robert Anthony. To find out more please visit the United Hip Hop Vanguard, this was an amazing event for healing and growth.

  1. Breakin Barriers Documentary

This documentary is to shed light on the darker aspects of the breakin scene covering sexual assault, addiction, mental illness, poverty, and violence. It reveals how the multitude of impossible barriers can be broken through a strong community that helps build, uplift, and empower the individuals within it to push them to do the extraordinary, brave, and evolutionary things that bring about change not just for the community, but for society. Raising over 12k in crowdfunding already, if you wish to support or partner up with them please contact

  1. Anti-Harassment/Bullying Classes - Victim Service Center Education

Coordinated by the Florida art community, presented by This or That. If you want to learn how to spot, stop, and prevent sexual assault, sexual harassment, and bullying, I highly recommend taking a class by a reputable organization. I recently took one that the Florida Art Community hosted virtually, for free. The training and prevention class was provided by Victim Service Center of Central Florida.

Classes like this can help you learn how to cope and respond to harassment, sexual assault, and bullying. Abusers will go to extreme lengths to protect themselves, and you need to be able to do the same.

We learned things like:

  • What survivors often live with. Headaches, fear, self-consciousness, embarrassment, questioning themselves.

  • What sexual assault looks like.

  • Physical. Unwanted touching, lewd gestures, exposing private parts, following or standing too close to a person.

  • Verbal. Spreading sexual rumors, making sexual jokes, calling someone degrading names of a sexual nature, catcalling or whistling.

  • Visual. Sexual drawings or pictures, sexually suggestive emails or test messages, wearing clothing with sexually explicit graphics.

  • Effects of sexual assault. Quitting a job, avoiding certain places, depression, anxiety, difficulty paying attention, not going to work or school.

  • The difference between flirting and harassing. Flirting makes both people feel good. Harassment makes one or more people feel bad.

  • How to protect yourself. We discussed the importance of having boundaries, demanding respect, and giving respect.

New Processes and Procedures Within the Breakdance Community

Although I believe that USA Breakin’ handled Xcel’s resignation and investigation (or lack thereof) horribly, I have to commend them for implementing new procedures and policies. After they apologized for their rushed statement, they said that they added two pages to their website:

USA Dance, the organization going to the Olympics, has their own set of policies and procedures in place to protect Bgirls and Bboys:

I believe these processes and procedures will help keep our community safer as we look toward the 2024 Paris Olympics.

Looking Toward the Olympics

I would like to clarify that I have nothing but love and passion for the art of breakin’ and the community. I am beyond thrilled to know that the sport I have dedicated so much of my life to is now recognized on a global scale and will be represented at the 2024 Paris Olympics!

I have to put an abrupt end to the accusations that I published the blog last year for attention, to tear the community down, and to prevent a USA break dancing team from getting into the Olympics - none of this is true.

There is never a “perfect time” to speak about sexual assault. It will always be uncomfortable. However, I felt it was my responsibility to protect the community that I love from someone who I knew to be an abuser. I did not want Xcel to be in a position of power while traveling to the other side of the globe with Bgirls and Bboys who fought so hard to get to the 2024 Games.

The journey to the Olympics and the competition itself is one of the most grueling experiences a person can have. As we saw with the Larry Nassar case, abuse can go on behind closed doors for years and affect hundreds of people for the rest of their lives. I want to do what I can to protect the Bgirls and Bboys in my community from those people who would try to take advantage of them during such an important and stressful time.

We also learned from the Larry Nassar case that it only takes one person speaking up to spark real change. In 2016, former gymnast, Rachael Denhollander, was the first person to publicly accuse Larry Nassar. In an interview with the Guardian, Rachael said, “When you speak out against your own community – whether that’s the gymnastics community, the religious community – you lose everything that formed a sense of security for you.”

In that same interview, she also said, “​​I get asked all the time, what’s the single most important thing we can do to combat abuse? And most of the time when people ask that question, they’re thinking policy: What policy provision do we need in place? But the single most important thing you can do [isn’t policy]. It’s to communicate that it matters, because that’s what changes the culture around you.”

Simone Biles, a high-profile survivor of Larry Nassar’s abuse and decorated Olympic gymnast, is another leader in the community who shows us the importance of standing up for ourselves, and the change we can create.

"I feel like coming back, gymnastics wasn’t the only purpose I was supposed to do.”

In a recent interview with the Today Show, Simone said, “I just feel like everything that happened, I had to come back to the sport. To be a voice, to have change happen, because I feel like if there weren’t a remaining survivor in the sport they would have just brushed it to the side. But since I’m still here and I have quite a social media presence and platform they have to do something. I feel like coming back, gymnastics wasn’t the only purpose I was supposed to do.”

These women are two clear examples that having conversations about issues in the community is the first step to creating change. Once the issues are recognized, only then can we begin to heal and put systems into place that protect women and others from becoming victims of abuse.

I believe that another important step toward protecting women is putting more women in positions of power. Women need to have a voice in situations that concern their health, safety, and general well-being. We must fight to get women elected and empower members of our community to become leaders and decision-makers.

As International Women’s Month comes to a close, we prepare to welcome Sexual Assault Awareness Month. Let’s all pledge to support women in and out of our community, protect each other, and raise awareness of sexual misconduct so we can put an end to violence against women.


April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month

This year The National Sexual Violence Resource Center (NSVR) is calling attention to harassment, cyberbullying, and sexual abuse and exploitation. Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM) this year is dedicated to Building Safe Spaces Online Together:

“Sexual harassment, assault, and abuse can happen anywhere, including in online spaces. For too long harassment, cyberbullying, and sexual abuse and exploitation have come to be expected as typical and unavoidable behaviors online. Building Safe Online Spaces Together is possible when we practice digital consent, intervene when we see harmful content and behaviors, and promote online communities that value respect, inclusion, and safety.”

You can find a list of SAAM events and ways to get involved here.

Trinity International Hip Hop Festival

Trinity International Hip Hop Festival, hosted by Trinity College, is going down March 31-April 3rd this year. This is an incredible event that focuses on unity, education, culture, healing, and growth. Events include dance workshops, panel discussions, film screenings, live graffiti mural painting, and art galleries.

Each day is jam-packed with events! You can view the schedule on the Trinity International Hip Hop Festival Facebook page.

Break the Cycle 2023

Part of my healing process is throwing my first Jam! Break the Cycle will be a celebration of healing and love. Dedicated to educating the community, providing discussion panels with topics like “What is Respect?” and “What Do Boundaries Look Like for Our Community?" and creating a safe space for all dancers to thrive.

This will be an annual event that is focused on all things Hip Hop, community healing, survivor resources, and also abuser resources. I believe that offering resources to abusers is equally important as offering resources to survivors because they are the only people who can really break the cycle of abuse.

What I said in my previous blog, still holds true:

“It’s important to know that most people who are abusers are often acting with an abused soul. In other words, they have been abused too. This doesn’t mean that they are allowed to lash out at others or be excused for their actions. It means they need to be held responsible for their actions and afforded the opportunity to get help and STOP the cycle of abuse.”

Abuser Resources

I encourage anyone out there who has begun or perpetuated a cycle of abuse to seek help in healing. Getting help from mental health professionals and breaking the dangerous cycle is more important than being punished or outcasted from the community.

When an abuser is punished or outcasted, they may seek other ways to continue their abuse. True and genuine healing must happen in order to say that an abuser will not intentionally hurt another person ever again.

You can begin your journey to healing by contacting the National Sexual Violence Resource Center, or RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network).

Anyone who is interested in abuser healing resources within the breakin’ community is more than welcome to attend Break the Cycle in 2023. Stay tuned for more details about dates, events, guest speakers, and more.

Looking Ahead

Thank you again to everyone who has stuck by my side throughout this painful yet rewarding journey. I am proud of the changes that have been made so far, but I realize that there is still a lot of work to do and I can’t do it alone! Together, we can continue calling out injustices in the community and protect the women who speak out in a male-dominated scene. Together, we can keep these difficult yet important conversations going so influential organizations cannot sweep these issues under the rug and act like they aren’t occurring. Together, we can put people in power who genuinely care about the health, safety, and general well-being of our community.

I am here to listen if anyone has a story they’d like to share, whether it be on my platform or just between us. Please share this blog to spread the word about how far we’ve come in the last year and to share community resources with those who need them.

I hope to see you at Break the Cycle 2023! Stay tuned for more information.

Special Thanks to my editor Jane L., Bgirl Michiko, Miguel Teck, Bgirl Trinity, Anna Nyakana, United Outkast Cru, and of course my family, and everyone who supports survivors in finding their voices.

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Me gustaría compartir la traducción del caso expuesto con XCEL

Ya que se me ha pedido que se comparta en nuestro Idioma, para que TODAS estemos alertas,para que sepamos cómo actúan ellos y de qué manera podemos actuar nosotras.


Advertencia de activación: violación, agresión sexual, sangre.

seudónimos *: algunos nombres se han cambiado para proteger la privacidad


El 3 de junio de 2011, fui violada por Jonathan Escotto (A.K.A. B-boy Xcel) de USA Breakin. Me tomó mucho tiempo lidiar con los eventos que ocurrieron esa noche, pero finalmente encontré mi voz.

Soy una bailarina de break-dance en un deporte dominado por hombres, Breakin (también conocido como Breakdance), un deporte que ha ganado atención internacional y se incluirá en los Juegos Olímpicos por primera vez en 2024. Es un hecho lamentable pero cierto que las mujeres son frecuentemente acosadas y abusadas sexualmente por los hombres en los deportes. Lamentablemente, los Juegos Olímpicos no son una excepción a esto.

No hay un solo deporte que esté libre de depredadores sexuales. Vemos ejemplos de esto con las acusaciones contra el médico del equipo nacional de gimnasia de Estados Unidos, Larry Nassar, quien también fue el coordinador médico de USAG en varios Juegos Olímpicos. Más de 130 mujeres lo acusaron de agresión sexual y fue sentenciado a 175 años de prisión. (Noticias de NBC).

Más de 290 entrenadores y oficiales asociados con organizaciones deportivas nacionales de Estados Unidos también han sido acusados ​​de violencia sexual desde 1982, muchos de los cuales nunca han enfrentado ningún tipo de castigo. (Tribunal de Chicago).

Más recientemente, una figura prominente en la comunidad de rompientes, Crazy Legs de Rock Steady Cru, fue acusada de usar su posición para presionar a las mujeres por favores sexuales, así como compartir imágenes no solicitadas de sus genitales durante más de 20 años. Ahora que el break ha sido reconocido oficialmente como un deporte por el Comité Olímpico Internacional (COI), tenemos la protección de SafeSport (Deporte Seguro), que fue diseñado para proteger a los miembros de las organizaciones deportivas nacionales (NSO) de EE. UU. De abusadores como Crazy Legs y Jonathan Escotto.

Muchas mujeres en la comunidad del Breaking tienen miedo de hablar sobre el abuso que han experimentado debido a la reacción violenta que probablemente enfrentarán. Esto es especialmente cierto cuando su abusador es una figura prominente o alguien a quien no pueden evitar, como un entrenador, un juez o un compañero de baile. Desafortunadamente, hay muchos abusadores que usarán la comunidad de intrusión para actuar sin consecuencias, ya que es común que los bailarines talentosos o exitosos no rindan cuentas debido a su nivel de habilidad y apoyo. Entiendo a las mujeres en estos puestos y espero que algún día encuentren su voz como yo.

Sin embargo, lo que es más importante, espero que las organizaciones que emplean o han empleado a abusadores hagan lo correcto al escuchar a las víctimas y tomar las medidas adecuadas.

La protección de SafeSport

SafeSport es una organización con la que el Comité Olímpico de E.E.U.U Se ha asociado para "reconocer, reducir y responder a la mala conducta en el deporte". SafeSport tiene como objetivo responder a los siguientes tipos de mala conducta:



Mala conducta emocional

Mala conducta física

Conducta sexual inapropiada, incluido el abuso sexual infantil

Dado que USA Breaking está bajo la jurisdicción de SafeSport, finalmente tenemos la oportunidad de hacer que los poderes sean conscientes de los abusadores en nuestra comunidad para que puedan ser considerados responsables de sus acciones, no poner excusas y salirse con la suya repetidamente con comportamientos aborrecibles.

Ya no podemos permitir que los abusadores se escondan en las sombras después de entrar en nuestras vidas y causar estragos. Estos perpetradores no merecen vivir cómodamente en su falta de vergüenza. Es hora de que nosotros, los supervivientes, nos levantemos y arrojemos luz sobre sus acciones para que SafeSport pueda sacarlos de sus puestos en el Comité de Breaking de EE. UU. La mayoría de las mujeres de la comunidad del Breaking no se sienten cómodas al hablar de sus abusadores, al igual que las jóvenes atletas del equipo de gimnasia de EE. UU. Solo podemos comenzar a sanar cuando nos unimos y reunimos el valor para hablar.

Juntos lo podemos hacer.

¿Cómo? Compartiendo nuestras historias, utilizando los recursos que están disponibles para nosotros y sabiendo cómo podemos protegernos de cualquier daño.

Hoy comparto mi historia

Mi historia comienza temprano una mañana de 2011. Aunque este evento traumático tuvo lugar hace casi 10 años, siempre he tenido problemas para decir mi verdad. Ya no, porque el mundo necesita conocer mi historia y el papel que jugó Jonathan en ella, y cómo su ética podría afectar las vidas de otras mujeres si no se evita.

La historia comienza la noche del viernes 2 de junio de 2011. Me dirigía a Boston con mis dos mejores amigos, James * y Nicole, para apoyar a nuestro compañero de tripulación en una competición preliminar para Red Bull BC1. Estábamos a solo una milla del evento cuando la correa de distribución de mi automóvil se rompió en la carretera. Tuvimos que llamar a AAA y conseguir una grúa para llevar mi coche a un mecánico de automóviles cercano. El conductor de la grúa, Todd, fue lo suficientemente amable como para dejarnos a los tres en el evento para que pudiéramos ver a nuestro amigo. Después del evento, estábamos atrapados en una ciudad a unas pocas horas de casa, así que Nicole llamó a Jonathan para preguntarle si podíamos pasar la noche ya que vivía cerca. El dijo que sí. Subimos a un taxi y nos dirigimos al apartamento de Jonathan y su novia.

Jonathan era promotor de un club en Boston. Nos dio la bienvenida para que lo acompañáramos, pero dijo que teníamos que apurarnos y prepararnos porque ya llegaba tarde. Así que Nicole y yo nos preparamos rápidamente y luego salimos todos.

Una vez que llegamos al club, todos nos divertimos, bailamos y bebimos juntos. Parecía que la noche iba bien, a pesar de los problemas que tuvimos antes. Alrededor de las 2 a.m., cuando los clubes de Boston cerraron, James, Nicole, Jonathan y yo nos dirigimos de regreso al apartamento de Jonathan.

Siempre me sentí segura cuando estaba con Nicole y James. ¡Son mis mejores amigos, mis manos derecha e izquierda! Me sentí cómodo bajando la guardia porque sabía que nada malo podría pasarme mientras estas dos personas estuvieran cerca. Jonathan fue mi amigo y mentor. Además, mis amigos confiaban lo suficiente en Jonathan como para dormir en su casa, así que pensé que no tenía ninguna razón para sentirme insegura.

Cuando regresamos a casa de Jonathan, rápidamente me cansé de un día tan estresante y tan tarde en la noche, así que me dirigí al sofá cama del primer piso mientras James, Nicole y Jonathan subían a descansar un rato. En algún momento, James y Nicole decidieron ir al 7-Eleven para comer algo y le preguntaron a Jonathan si quería ir. Dijo que solo quería ducharse e irse a la cama en su habitación, ubicada en el segundo piso. Al parecer, Nicole me preguntó cuando bajó las escaleras si quería algo, pero estaba dormida, así que no respondí.

Lo siguiente que supe, fue que me despertó de golpe el cuerpo de Jonathan presionado contra mí. Me sorprendí y dije: "Jonathan, ¿qué estás haciendo?" Pregunté una y otra vez dónde estaban James y Nicole. Simplemente seguía diciendo que se habían ido por más de una hora y media, un período de tiempo imposible considerando lo cerca que estaba 7-Eleven. Parecía como si hubiera esperado a que mis amigos, mis protectores, se fueran para poder hacer su movimiento.

Jonathan me subió la camiseta sin mangas y me quitó los pantalones cortos azules. Tuve mi período, así que la sangre lo manchó a él y a la cama cuando cayó sobre mí y me penetró, sin protección. Finalmente dijo: "Si realmente quieres que me detenga, lo haré". Lo miré con sorpresa y desesperación en mis ojos y grité: "¡SÍ, QUIERO QUE PARES!"

Para cuando James y Nicole regresaron al apartamento, yo me había encerrado en el baño y Jonathan estaba parado abajo, comiendo casualmente una bolsa de palomitas de maíz con queso cheddar blanco como si nada hubiera pasado. Dejándolo escapar, Jonathan se limpió las manos en la camisa tratando de deshacerse del residuo sobrante de las palomitas de maíz, pero sin que él lo supiera, había limpiado mi sangre en su camisa. James se dio cuenta y preguntó cuáles eran las manchas rojas en las que Jonathan respondió: "Es solo el polvo de las palomitas de maíz".

Les rogué a Nicole y James que me sacaran de allí, así que fuimos a un hotel cercano que tenía una habitación vacía. Todavía estaba en shock y era difícil para mí procesar lo que había sucedido y si quería involucrar a la policía… Después de todo, Jonathan tenía una novia y una hija que se verían afectadas por esto. Me encontré pensando en cómo las acciones de Jonathan afectarían a todos, ¡excepto a mí! Incluso cuando James se ofreció a defender mi honor, estaba preocupado por lo que le pasaría, porque él también tiene una hija que podría verse afectada por ramificaciones legales si James se involucraba en algún conflicto.

Al día siguiente, remolcaron mi automóvil de Boston a Connecticut, donde vivo. Me sentí tan disgustada con la situación que pensé en suicidarme. De repente, algo hizo clic y me di cuenta de que NO estaba SOLA. Que NO FUE MI CULPA.

Mis amigos y yo volvimos a Boston y presentamos un informe de agresión sexual. Conseguí un kit de violación y hablé con algunas mujeres diferentes que me explicaron mis derechos y que yo era la víctima en la situación. Desafortunadamente, esta no era la primera vez que se acusaba a Jonathan de violencia sexual. Sabía cómo funcionaba esto y qué decir para poder salir de ello. El detective del caso dijo que no podía hacer mucho porque Jonathan dijo que tuvimos relaciones sexuales consensuales. Un montón de toros.

Está muy claro que Jonathan no me respeta ni a mí ni a otros miembros de la comunidad de Break. Demostró que esto era cierto cuando le pidieron que no asistiera al evento de aniversario de mi equipo y, de todos modos, apareció con amigos. Jonathan tuvo que ser escoltado fuera del evento por otros miembros de mi equipo, todos los cuales estaban muy molestos porque había mostrado tal falta de respeto en un día en el que se suponía que íbamos a celebrar juntos.

Protegiendo a otras B-Girls

Después de que pude reunir mis fuerzas, les llevé esta información a mis compañeras B-girls. Quería advertirles sobre Jonathan para que pudieran estar alerta y tomar precauciones adicionales si alguna vez se encontraban en una situación incómoda con él. Para mi sorpresa, ¡las ocho chicas a las que les conté dijeron que también tenían algún tipo de problema con Jonathan!

También me comuniqué con algunos b-boys que sabía que tenían novias, para poder advertirles también. Quería difundir el mensaje lo más lejos posible para reducir las posibilidades de que esto volviera a suceder.

Estas otras mujeres y yo encontramos fuerzas entre sí, y ahora he recopilado toda la información necesaria para llevar a SafeSport contra Jonathan. Afortunadamente, SafeSport se toma estos asuntos muy en serio, y ahora que el break es un deporte olímpico oficial, se espera que Jonathan, como vicepresidente de USA Breaking, cumpla con sus reglas y regulaciones. Yo y todas las otras chicas tenemos protección de Jonathan y otras personas como él.

Usaré mi voz, mi fuerza, mi poder, para protegerme y proteger a mis b-girls. Ya no soy víctima de violación, soy una sobreviviente. Si mi mensaje solo ayuda a una mujer, entonces he hecho lo que Dios me ha llamado a hacer.

Nueve formas de protegerse de una situación de abuso

1. Reconozca cuando no se sienta seguro y no ignore ese sentimiento. Confía en tus instintos.

2. Recuerde que NO significa NO. Incluso si una persona con la que ha tenido contacto sexual anterior está iniciando. Se le permite decir NO cuando lo desee.

3. Conozca el pasado de una persona antes de estar en una posición vulnerable con ella. - ¿Son abusadores habituales? ¿Tienen relaciones poco saludables? ¿Cómo los ven los demás en su comunidad?

4. Manténgase alerta en todo momento, especialmente cuando esté cerca de gente nueva. No bajes la guardia. No asista a prácticas, jams o competencias solo, especialmente si es mujer. ¡Ve con al menos un amigo en el que confíes! La mayoría de las mujeres sienten miedo cuando están solas en lugares extraños, mientras que pocos hombres lo sienten. Es triste que las mujeres tengan que estar siempre a la defensiva, pero es cierto.

El modo de supervivencia en una escena dominada por hombres te ayudará a hacer precisamente eso: sobrevivir.

5. Quédese con un ser querido de confianza en todo momento. No los pierda de vista o viceversa.

6. Informe cualquier comportamiento que le haga sentir incómodo a las autoridades correspondientes.Siempre es mejor tener un registro de documentos si necesita construir un caso más adelante.

7. No tome bebidas de nadie en quien no confíe, ¡ni siquiera un sorbo!

8. Si recibe mensajes de acoso o amenazas en línea, no interactúe. Haga una captura de pantalla del mensaje, infórmelo al anfitrión (puede hacerlo en Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Gmail, Hotmail, etc.) y bloquee al remitente. Guarde la captura de pantalla en un lugar seguro para mostrársela a las autoridades, si es necesario.

9. Si es una víctima que ha presentado un informe policial, tiene derecho a llamar al departamento de policía y solicitar un informe no redactado. Le mostrará cada palabra del informe sin tachar nada.

Recursos para sobrevivientes

Organizaciones que pueden ayudarle si es un sobreviviente de agresión sexual:

• Yo también movimiento / LLUVIA

• SafeSport - (720) 531-0340

• Proteger a los bailarines de Nueva York

• Defensores de la protección de la juventud en la danza

• DanceSafe

• Todas las damas dicen

• Bgirlherstory

• Industrias Homeboy

• Break Safe

Recursos terapéuticos

• Terapia en línea de Better Help

• Charla de PTSD

• Línea directa de mensajes de texto en caso de crisis: 741-741

• Manual de prevención de agresiones sexuales y agresiones sexuales

• Comprensión de la violencia contra las mujeres

• El valor de curar de Ellen Bass y Laura Davis


Con relación a los abusadores:

Es importante saber que la mayoría de las personas que abusan a menudo actúan con un alma abusada. En otras palabras, también han sufrido abusos. Esto no significa que se les permita arremeter contra otros o ser excusados ​​por sus acciones. Significa que deben ser responsables de sus acciones y brindarles la oportunidad de obtener ayuda y DETENER el ciclo de abuso.

Tomando la responsabilidad primero

Larry Nassar, el coordinador médico caído en desgracia de USA Gymnastics, se puso en posición de hacer, alterar y doblar las reglas que se suponía debían estar vigentes para proteger a los atletas de los que estaba abusando, y hoy, Jonathan está en la misma posición. Ha sido ascendido a DanceSport VP y ha aparecido como si estuviera completamente en contra y dispuesto a defender a los atletas de los mismos comportamientos abusivos de los que él mismo es culpable. Aquí hay un extracto del anuncio de Jonathan que nombró a los miembros más nuevos de DanceSport:

“El vicepresidente de USA Breakin 'DanceSport, Jonathan" Xcel "Escotto, anuncia a los miembros del Consejo de USA Breakin' DanceSport. Los atletas del DanceSport Council representan a los atletas Breakin 'en el esfuerzo competitivo. El propósito del DanceSport Council es interactuar con la Comunidad Breakin 'y proporcionar representación de los atletas para garantizar una línea directa de comunicación entre los atletas y el BOD de Breakin' de EE. UU. El Consejo funciona para asesorar sobre el mejor interés de los atletas, recomendar y proteger los derechos de los atletas, proporcionar una perspectiva de los atletas sobre la Junta y los comités de USA Breakin ', identificar y seleccionar atletas para proporcionar representación en los comités operativos de USA Breakin' que impactan a los atletas, Identificar y desarrollar a los atletas como futuros representantes dentro de la organización, defender el deporte seguro y los valores antidopaje dentro de la comunidad y organización de Breakin ', comunicar y explicar las razones que subyacen a las decisiones de USA Breakin' BoD a la comunidad de Breakin 'y hacer recomendaciones a la Junta. con respecto a las políticas, reglas y procedimientos relacionados con los atletas.

Miembros del DanceSport Council ".

Jonathan Escotto ha mostrado sus verdaderos colores y ha demostrado que no debe estar en una posición destinada a cuidar a los demás. Sus acciones van en contra de todo lo que representan DanceSport y SafeSport. Debe ser destituido de su cargo y responsabilizado por sus acciones.

Hoy comparto mi historia para que otras sobrevivientes de violación y agresión sexual sepan que sus experiencias no son culpa de ellos. No importa cuánto hayas bebido, qué lleves puesto, cuál es tu trabajo, cuáles son tus pasatiempos ... Se te permite caminar en tu luz divina sin que nadie perturbe tu paz. Es triste y desafortunado que alguien haya perturbado la paz de su abusador, pero sus acciones no son culpa suya. Ellos tienen el control de sí mismos y ELIGIERON aprovecharse de ti.

Te pido que tomes mi mano y camines en la luz conmigo; elegir detener el ciclo de abuso denunciando a los abusadores y responsabilizándolos. Estoy aqui para ti. La comunidad B-girl está aquí para ti. Somos supervivientes y prosperaremos.

Un agradecimiento especial a Bgirl Michiko, Miguel Teck, Bgirl Trinity, Jane L., Bgirl Rokafella, Papa Glyde, mi Cru y, por supuesto, mi familia, y todos los que apoyan a los sobrevivientes para encontrar sus voces.

Asesor legal de Frank J. Riccio Abogado de defensa criminal.




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Updated: Apr 5, 2021


Trigger warning: rape, sexual assault, blood.

pseudonyms*: Some names have been changed to protect privacy


On June 3, 2011, I was raped by Jonathan Escotto (A.K.A. B-boy Xcel) of USA Breakin. It took me a long time to grapple with the events that occurred that night, but I have finally found my voice.

I am a female break-dancer in a male-dominated sport, Breakin (also known as Breakdancing) – a sport that has gained international attention and will be included in the Olympic Games for the first time in 2024. It’s an unfortunate but true fact that women are frequently sexually harassed and abused by men in sports. Sadly, the Olympic games is no exception to this.

There isn’t a single sport that is free of sexual predators. We see examples of this with the allegations against the USA gymnastics national team physician, Larry Nassar, who was also the medical coordinator for USAG at several Olympic Games. He was accused by 130+ women of sexual assault and was sentenced to 175 years in prison. (NBC News).

More than 290 coaches and officials that are associated with United States national sports organizations have also been accused of sexual violence since 1982, many of which have never faced any kind of punishment. (Chicago Tribune).

More recently, a prominent figure in the breaking community, Crazy Legs from the Rock Steady Cru, was accused of using his position to pressure women for sexual favors, as well as share unsolicited pictures of his genitalia for over 20 years. Now that breaking has officially been recognized as a sport by the International Olympic Committee (IOC), we have the protection of SafeSport, which was designed to protect members of US national sports organizations (NSO) from abusers like Crazy Legs and Jonathan Escotto.

Many women in the breaking community are afraid to come forward about the abuse that they’ve experienced due to the backlash they are likely to face. This is especially true when their abuser is a prominent figure or someone that they cannot avoid - such as a coach, a judge, or a fellow dancer. Unfortunately, there are many abusers that will use the breakin community to act without consequence, since it is common for talented or successful dancers to not be held accountable due to their skill level and support. I understand the women in these positions and hope that one day, they will find their voice as I have.

More importantly, however, I hope that the organizations that employ or have employed abusers will do the right thing by listening to victims and taking the appropriate action.

The Protection of SafeSport

SafeSport is an organization that the US Olympic Committee has partnered with to “recognize, reduce and respond to misconduct in sport.” SafeSport aims to respond to the following types of misconduct:

  • Bullying

  • Harassment

  • Hazing

  • Emotional Misconduct

  • Physical Misconduct

  • Sexual Misconduct, including Child Sexual Abuse

Since USA Breaking falls under the jurisdiction of SafeSport, we finally have the opportunity to make the powers that be aware of abusers in our community so they can be held accountable for their actions - not make excuses and repeatedly get away with abhorrent behavior.

We can no longer allow abusers to slink away into the shadows after coming into our lives and wreaking havoc. These perpetrators do not deserve to live comfortably in their lack of shame. It’s time for us – the survivors – to rise up and shine a bright light on their actions so SafeSport can remove them from their positions on the USA Breaking Committee. Most women in the breaking community do not feel comfortable coming forth about their abusers, just as the young athletes on the USA Gymnastics team did not. We can only begin to heal when we come together and gather the courage to speak up.

Together, we can do it.

How? By sharing our stories, utilizing the resources that are available to us, and knowing how we can protect ourselves from harm.

Today, I Share My Story

My story begins early one morning in 2011. Although this traumatic event took place almost 10-years ago, I have always had trouble speaking my truth. Not anymore, because the world needs to know my story and the role that Jonathan played in it, and how his ethics might impact the lives of other women if it is not prevented.

The story begins on the evening of Friday, June 2, 2011. I was on my way to Boston with my two best friends, James* and Nicole, to support our crewmate in a breakin competition for Red Bull BC1. We were only about a mile away from the event when the timing belt in my car broke on the highway. We had to call AAA and get a tow truck to bring my car to a nearby auto mechanic. The tow truck driver, Todd, was nice enough to drop the three of us off at the event so we could watch our friend. After the event, we were stuck in a city a few hours away from home, so Nicole called Jonathan to ask if we could spend the night since he lived nearby. He said yes. We hopped in a cab and made our way to Jonathan and his girlfriend’s apartment.

Jonathan was a club promoter in Boston. He welcomed us to come with him, but he said that we had to hurry up and get ready because he was already running late. So Nicole and I quickly got ready and then we all headed out.

Once we got to the club, we were all having fun, dancing and drinking together. It seemed as though the night was going well, despite the trouble we had earlier. Around 2 a.m., when the clubs in Boston closed, James, Nicole, Jonathan, and I all headed back to Jonathan’s apartment.

I always felt safe when I was with Nicole and James. They are my best friends, my right and left hands! I felt comfortable letting my guard down because I knew that nothing bad could happen to me while these two people were around. Jonathan was my friend and mentor. Plus, my friends trusted Jonathan enough to sleep in his house, so I thought I didn’t have any reason to feel unsafe.

When we got back to Jonathan’s, I quickly became tired from such a stressful day and late-night, so I took to the pull-out sofa on the first floor while James, Nicole, and Jonathan went upstairs to break for a while. At some point, James and Nicole decided to go to 7-Eleven to get a snack, and they asked Jonathan if he wanted to come. He said that he just wanted to shower and go to bed in his room, located on the second floor. Apparently, Nicole asked me when she came downstairs if I wanted anything, but I was asleep, so I didn’t respond.

The next thing I knew, I was jolted awake by Jonathan’s body pressed up against me. I was startled and said, “Jonathan, what are you doing??” I asked over and over again were James and Nicole were. He just kept saying that they had been gone for over an hour and a half – an impossible timeframe considering how close 7-Eleven was. It seemed as though he had waited for my friends, my protectors, to leave so he could make his move.

Jonathan pushed my tank top up and removed my blue shorts. I had my period, so blood got on him and the bed when he went down on me and penetrated me – without protection. He finally said, “If you really want me to stop, I’ll stop.” I looked at him with shock and desperation in my eyes and shouted, “YES, I WANT YOU TO STOP!”

By the time James and Nicole got back to the apartment, I had locked myself in the bathroom and Jonathan was just standing downstairs, casually eating a bag of white cheddar popcorn as if nothing had happened. Letting it slip his mind Jonathan wiped his hands on his shirt trying to dispose of the leftover residue from the popcorn, but unbeknownst to him, he had wiped my blood on his shirt. James took notice and asked what the red stains were in which Jonathan replied, “It’s just the popcorn dust.”

I begged Nicole and James to get me out of there, so we went to a nearby hotel that had a vacant room. I was still in shock and it was hard for me to process what had happened and if I wanted to get the police involved… After all, Jonathan had a girlfriend and a daughter who would be affected by this. I found myself thinking about how Jonathan’s actions would affect everyone, except me! Even when James offered to defend my honor, I was worried about what would happen to him, because he also has a daughter that could be affected by legal ramifications if James became involved in any conflicts.

The next day, we had my car towed from Boston to Connecticut, where I live. I felt so disgusted with the situation that I contemplated committing suicide. Suddenly, something clicked, and I realized that I was NOT ALONE. That it was NOT MY FAULT.

My friends and I went back to Boston and filed a sexual assault report. I got a rape kit and talked to a few different women who explained my rights to me and that I was the victim in the situation. Unfortunately, this was not the first time Jonathan had been accused of sexual violence. He knew how this worked and what to say so that he could get out of it. The detective on the case said that there isn’t much he can do because Jonathan said that we had consensual sex. A load of bull.

It is crystal clear that Jonathan has no respect for me or some other members of the breaking community. He proved this to be true when he was asked to not attend my crew’s anniversary event, and he showed up anyway - with friends. Jonathan had to be escorted out of the event by other members of my crew, all of whom were very upset that he had exhibited such a lack of respect on a day when we were supposed to be celebrating together.

Protecting Other B-Girls

After I was able to collect my strength, I brought this information to my fellow b-girls. I wanted to warn them about Jonathan so they could be alert and take extra precautions if they ever found themselves in an uncomfortable situation with him. To my surprise, all eight of the girls I told said that they had some kind of issue with Jonathan too!

I also reached out to a few b-boys that I knew had girlfriends, so I could warn them as well. I wanted to spread the message as far and wide as I could to shrink the chances of this ever happening again.

These other women and I found strength within each other, and I have now collected all the information that is necessary to bring to SafeSport against Jonathan. Thankfully, SafeSport takes these matters very seriously, and now that breaking is an official Olympic sport, Jonathan, being the vice president of USA Breaking, is expected to abide by their rules and regulations. I and all of the other b-girls out there have protection from Jonathan and other people like him.

I will use my voice, my strength, my power, to protect myself and my b-girls. I am no longer a victim of rape, I am a survivor. If my message just helps one woman then I have done what God has called me to do.

Nine ways to Protect Yourself from an Abusive Situation

1. Acknowledge when you don’t feel safe and don’t ignore that feeling. Trust your instincts.

2. Remember that NO means NO. Even if a person you have had previous sexual contact with is initiating. You are allowed to say NO whenever you want.

3. Be aware of a person’s past before being in a vulnerable position with them. – are they habitual abusers? Do they have unhealthy relationships? How do others in your community view them?

4. Stay alert at all times, especially when around new people. Do not let your guard down. Don’t attend practices, jams, or competitions alone, especially if you’re a female. Go with at least one friend that you trust! Most women feel afraid when they’re alone in strange places while few men do. It’s sad that women have to always be on the defense, but it’s true.

Survival mode in a male-dominated scene will help you do just that: survive.

5. Stay with a trusted loved one at all times. Do not let them out of your sight or vice versa.

6. Report any and all behavior that makes you uncomfortable to the appropriate authorities.

It’s always best to have a paper trail if you need to build a case later on down the road.

7. Do not take drinks from anyone that you don’t trust, not even one sip!

8. If you receive harassing or threatening messages online, do not interact. Screenshot the message, report it to the host (you can do this on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Gmail, Hotmail, etc.), and block the sender. Keep the screenshot in a safe place to show to the authorities, if necessary.

9. If you are a victim who has filed a police report, you have the right to call the police department and ask for an unredacted report. It will show you every word in the report with nothing crossed out.

Resources for Survivors

Organizations that can help you if you are a survivor of sexual assault:

• Me Too Movement / RAINN

• SafeSport - (720) 531-0340

• Protect NYC Dancers

• Youth Protective Advocates in Dance

• DanceSafe

• All The Ladies Say

• Bgirlherstory

• Homeboy Industries

• Break Safe

Therapeutic Resources

• Better Help online therapy

• PTSD Chat

• Crisis Text Hotline: 741-741

• Handbook of Sexual Assault and Sexual Assault Prevention

• Understanding Violence Against Women

• The Courage to Heal by Ellen Bass and Laura Davis


In acknowledgment of the abusers:

It’s important to know that most people who are abusers are often acting with an abused soul. In other words, they have been abused too. This doesn’t mean that they are allowed to lash out at others or be excused for their actions. It means they need to be held responsible for their actions and afforded the opportunity to get help and STOP the cycle of abuse.

Taking accountability first

Larry Nassar, the disgraced medical coordinator for USA Gymnastics, put himself in a position to make, alter and bend the rules that were supposed to be in place to protect the athletes that he was abusing, and today, Jonathan is in the same position. He has been promoted to DanceSport VP and has been appearing as if he is completely against and willing to defend athletes from the same abusive behaviors of which he himself is guilty of. Here is an excerpt from Jonathan’s announcement that named the newest members of DanceSport:

“USA Breakin' DanceSport VP, Jonathan "Xcel" Escotto, announces the members of the USA Breakin’ DanceSport Council. The athletes of the DanceSport Council represent the Breakin' athletes in the competitive endeavor. The purpose of the DanceSport Council is to interact with the Breakin' Community and provide athlete representation to ensure a direct line of communication between the athletes and USA Breakin’ BOD. The Council functions to advise on the best interest of athletes, recommend and protect the rights of athletes, provide an athlete perspective on the USA Breakin’ Board and committees, identify and select athletes to provide representation on USA Breakin’ operational committees which impact athletes, identify and develop athletes as future representatives within the organization, advocate Safesport and anti-doping values within the Breakin’ Community and organization, communicate and explain the reasons underlying USA Breakin’ BoD decisions to the Breakin' Community, and to make recommendations to the Board regarding athlete related policies, rules, and procedures.

DanceSport Council members.”

Jonathan Escotto has shown his true colors and proved that he should not be in a position that is meant to look out for others. His actions go against everything that DanceSport and SafeSport stand for. He must be removed from his position and held accountable for his actions.

I’m sharing my story today to let other survivors of rape and sexual assault know that their experiences are not their fault. It doesn’t matter how much you’ve had to drink, what you’re wearing, what your job is, what your hobbies are… You are allowed to walk in your divine light without anyone disturbing your peace. It is sad and unfortunate that someone has disturbed your abuser’s peace, but their actions are not your fault. They are in control of themselves and they CHOSE to prey upon you.

I ask you to take my hand and walk in the light with me; to choose to stop the cycle of abuse by calling out abusers and holding them responsible. I am here for you. The b-girl community is here for you. We are survivors and we will thrive.

Special Thanks to Bgirl Michiko, Miguel Teck, Bgirl Trinity, Jane L., Bgirl Rokafella, Papa Glyde, my Cru, and of course my family, and everyone who supports survivors in finding their voices.

Legal Counsel from Frank J. Riccio Criminal Defense Attorney